I'm ashamed of myself =_=

There was a community event in my residential area today. It is mainly for people to sign-up as members of the residents association. Mum, my brother and I went to check it out since there was free food I've never been to any of my residential area's community event before and wanted to see if there were any cute guys in the area =P. Mum also wanted to clarify something with the community members, so despite the drizzle, we walked to the park/playground area.

There were not many people there today. According to my brother, the last community event he attended had A LOT more people. I figured it is probably due to the rain because it got heavier as we reach the park/playground area. (Us three being so smart did not think of bringing an umbrella -_-'')

Anyway, after dilly-dallying for about half an hour, the community members started giving mini speeches and whatnot. Another half an hour later, the president finally gave the word to start the buffet. I was starving then!! (I didn't eat lunch and there were hardly anything to eat at home for tea-time =3)

Since it was still raining and there were only a few small canopy, everyone was trying to squeeze under the canopy and line-up for food at the same time. There were hardly any space to move around, and me being a klutz dropped my spoon on the ground =( I wanted to picked it up straight away but people kept pushing/squeezing and there was no way I could bend down and get my spoon. I ended up leaving the poor spoon to drown in the 'mini flood' and be crushed by numerous wet feet.

I didn't give too much thought about the spoon afterwards even though mum had asked me to pick it up. It was just too icky laying there on the wet floor. Soon enough, I regretted my decision for not picking up the spoon as the crowd died down.

An old grandma with a cane saw the spoon and did what I should have done way earlier on. Due to old age, she could not get the spoon on the first try. I wanted to help her, but before I managed to do anything, she had already bent down with great effort and picked up the dirty spoon. At that moment, I was so ashamed of myself =_= How could I have left the spoon there thinking that the caterer will clean it up later? How could I allow myself to let an old grandma with difficulty walking pick up the spoon that I dropped?

I am so ashamed of my ignorant behavior, and I feel a great sense of remorse for having a grandma showing me the right thing to do. I am utterly disgusted at myself that I feel the need to blog out this confession. I hope that those of you who are reading this will pardon my lack of action. =(